sometimes we need a push, a new outlook, or a heartbreak.
but if there is one thing i learned this year,
it’s that i can make myself happy.
when i came back to BYU this year, i was fresh out of a relationship–the first one in 3 years.
my last night home we both cried.
the tears were a little pathetic honestly–but it was good to remember how to love someone else
and remember in turn–how to love myself.
after we broke up, it was hard.
it gave me this fabulous opportunity to grow up.
i learned how to become a better person
and i matured more than i ever have before.
I got so content with the person i am now,
(as opposed to the person i was when i left spokane)
that when i saw him again,
everything was okay, exactly how it is.
and i can’t thank God enough for it.
it’s like that song by Bright Eyes says, “When everything is lonely i can be my own best friend”
and you know what? i think it’s great.
this morning i was beaming.
smiling big with my red lips and had ears for only brand new.
and today it rained. like real rain, washington-eque rain,
it smelled beautiful.
All i could think is–i’m at a really good place in my life right now.
come what may.