Unknown

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There is a certain distrust in the unknown, as if we do not trust our own ability to adapt.  For some, it is something that brings excitement. For those of us in which this unkown bewitches, we are always willing to persuade others to dive in. Jumping and in hand, the drop is exhilarating and the potential for greatness is infinite. Sure there’s a possibility it may end in misery but the what if it ends in inexplicable joy? I have learned to not fear the unknown, rather understand that the inability to see ahead means you can’t expect more out of what it than it is. It can present itself as itself. It forces you to be completely present. Let it exist, you must coexist. Let it pass through you without presumption

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Bad Blood, and Resilient Love

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  If we’re being honest, my life is once again most easily described by a taylor swift song. I suppose thats just a side affect of being human, amiright?? *thanks taylor swift for creating 1989, and also for writing the song Bad Blood* It’s been a rough semester for me, not even academically, schools been great actually. but in basically every other facet of my life. a bubbling mess of a laughable love life, betrayal and lost friendships. It’s been one for the books, and I’m so very ready to put the book down, and start a better one. Honestly most the time I feel like I’m just going through the motions, being polite because I don’t know how to be malicious, and hoping I’ll be in a different country next semester. (side note, I just applied for an internship across the world. So.) Thanksgiving came a just the right […]

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  shirt: uniqlo // pants: zara // shoes: goodwill a few days ago I was staring at the ceiling talking about some philosophical. theological, and existential questions and thoughts with Lauren. It was one of those spontaneous tangents we both needed to go off on. It was nice. Though there were a lot of frustrations we both expressed, I felt so lucky to have a friend like her. It’s not often you find people who are willing to be as unguarded and real. I’m grateful for Lauren’s ability to ooze authenticity and general likability. I’m thankful she’s one my best friends. Knowing that I have several friends like this in my life is a great source for comfort. That being said, I’ve been a little bit of a grumpy-gus lately.  I’ve been getting really frustrated with others inability to accept vulnerability. (it doesn’t help that my entire BFA project is […]

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on anticipating pain.

Shirt: UO // pants: anthropologie // shoes: Nina Z clogs Do you ever feel so happy that you might explode? Where you’re so content with your life that you have trouble even breathing, let alone believing that is your reality?  I think we’ve all felt those limited infinities. Where a moment strikes you as extraordinary and you just can’t help but feel joy. Those moments  are nothing short of magical. Every once in a while, in those moments, my mind begins to stress out. Where suddenly I try to absorb all of that delight frantically because I immediately assume that something terrible must be on the horizon. The term “this is too good to be true” becomes the anthem of my thoughts and begin to prepare myself for inevitable pain. This is true of nearly every relationship I’ve been in (and probabably why the honeymoon stage is both wonderful and […]

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The arduous road to actually liking myself.

 shirt: madewell // pants: zara // bag: kate spade saturday // shoes: vans via madewell I’m sitting on a crowded train when I observe a man tapping his cane and singing with the kind of gusto fit for Broadway. To him the rest of us don’t exist. In his mind he’s just enjoying his favorite song, doing what we all wished we had the courage to do—sing loud and out of key and out of mind of our judgement. His oblivious bravado puts us in a state of amused discomfort. Some of us look on bemusedly, others record the display of don’t-give-a-sh** on our smartphones, and the rest of us sigh silently out of relief that this stranger has so graciously stolen the spotlight. I’m tempted to laugh out of nervousness; you know the laugh I’m talking about. The one we use when we want to say “Don’t worry everyone. […]

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an update

When I left for New York, I imagined it would be similar to my Europe trip, in the sense that I would be taking pictures everywhere, and posting all the time. Instead I find myself becoming so distracted exploring that I forget to take my camera out. I’m at Martha from 9 to 6 everyday and it takes me about 45 min to get to and from work. Weeknights mean I have time for maybe one little excursion. But I tend to come home and get in bed my 11:30. I’m still trying to pinpoint the exact moment I became an “adult” but I think being ready for bed before midnight is a pretty good sign pointing to grown-up territory. yikes. I find myself watching and absorbing and taking everything in at every moment. I feel so at ease here, which surprises me because big cities seem like the kind […]

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the obsessions continues, and other tidbits.

shirt: banana republic // skirt: uniqlo // shoes & earrings: old navy // necklace: blue nile jewlery  I’m still a sucker for monochromatic/gray/black outfits, so it only makes sense that my first sunday outfit had minimal color. It’s ironic I feel that way since the majority of the clothing I packed for the summer is preeeeetty colorful. meh. what can you do. These pictures were taken in the Lobby of my building. I’m obsessed with the tile work. The area I’m living in is pretty great. I feel safe here which I’m sure my father will be relieved to hear, and it’s really close to a park. It’s also so close to New Jersey that the other day my roommate went out for a walk the other day and ended up there. Every night there are people in the streets until really late, and usually someone is playing Latin music […]

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Because Feminism is Not Just For Women.

If you’ve been reading my blog for a while, you know by now that I’ve spoken a few times about feminism and it’s importance for the health of our society. I’ve been trying to sit back and digest my thoughts the last couple days, and I realized that most of that was honestly me just being afraid to speak my mind. well, that’s just stupid. so here goes. In light of the Santa Barbara shooting, I’ve felt pretty heartbroken for the victims and their families. I also feel this heavy weight for women as a whole. I’ve spent a good amount of time reading through the #yesallwomen hashtag on twitter and it’s been so incredible to see all sorts of women speak up. It was hard to see just how pervasive sexism, misogyny, and rape culture is. I’m trying to be optimistic, and I’m struggling a little bit. Feminism is NOT […]

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10 Things You Need To Know About Me If We’re Going To Be BFFs

So once upon a time, Bri tagged me in this post and I was stoked. Partly because her list made me feel like we were destined to be best friends, but also because I was curious what my list would be. I finally got around to writing it, and because of it’s complete lack of glamour, it’s probably a good indication of our compatibility in bestfriendshiphood. But hey, what can ya do? ONE I like memes. A lot. I blame an old boyfriend for getting me into memes, I blame cats for keeping me there. TWO You need to be okay either sharing a twin bed with me at some point in our relationship, it’s sort of a right of passage as my BFF. Displays of affection for my best friends include but are not limited to: kissing you on the forehead or cheek, holding your hand , nuzzling you as I give […]

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