if you’ve met me in person, and you’ve heard me talk about “back home” i’ve probably told you about “my mountain” and that i live in the boonies and that it’s the most beautiful place ever and talked your ear off on how awesome the Northwest is. Well today i had a chance to prove it to my dear friend Brooke. Patrick and I set out to give her a good ole taste of the Northwest. These photos were taken on said mountain. Today was such a great day, i haven’t had so much fun in a real long time. I’m gonna split up the pictures in a few posts. mostly to make sure i’m posting consistently, also cause i edited them in different ways and sometimes i can be a little anal about that kind of stuff. anyway, i feel as though i need to check in with all […]
For those of you that have sat through my depressing posts this last week, thanks for putting up with me. and for those who left some sweet comments, thank you for helping me. you really did. In the midst of this trial i had an experience that brought such peace to my heart and allowed me to start looking up. I was in a conversation that could have been messy, dramatic, emotional, even potentially spiteful, and against all odds walked away with a feeling of comfort. That moment we were surrounded by Gods love. It was almost tangible. We noted that those moments that you never want to end, that you just want sit and soak in, are manifestations of His presence. Those moments are glimpses into the eternities. That has been what i’ve sought this week. more of those moments. in the process of getting to them, i’ve begun to […]
And just like that, the storm has passed. Against all odds, yesterday was one of my favorites. I have been taken a back by the sheer amount of people who actually care, thank you for that. I had several really neat experiences which brought me clarity and comfort, and one specifically that strengthened my faith far greater than i would have ever expected it to. A new day is here, along with a new perspective and all because God is good, and so are people. later today i’ll post some pictures that i’m also really happy about 🙂
i woke up yesterday at 6:30 am. i had thankfully slept through the night. I believed myself so numb that maybe i could go the day without crying, that perhaps this day was new and bright and hopeful. not 30 minutes later i found myself at the bottom of my shower, huddled into the fetal position, sobbing. the tears were barely at bay all day. i suppose feeling as completely broken and miserable as i do, it says something about how blissfully happy i was. i realize that there are bigger problems than this. i read about a woman who had countless serious injuries and lost a child in a car crash and i felt selfish for feeling this way. hoping to get some answers tonight at the only place that seems to calm me.also, this.
I fully intended to tell you about this shoot and how wonderful it was, i really did. But today life wound up and backhanded me with about as much force as a 18 wheeler truck. it was also about as unexpected as getting run over by a semi truck. I was gonna pretend to be all fine and dandy and post them anyway, but remember how i’m trying to be more authentic? well here it is. this is how i feel today. and i’d like to share my salt flats shoot when i can finally muster a smile.
^^^ rocking the head scarf again because it’ works like magic and my hair is secretly disgusting This is my “you internet people are neat!” face. A resounding THANK YOU to all those who commented yesterday. (confession time: i LIVE for comments. i refresh blogger aaaallll the time looking for them. it’s fine, i’m crazy). I replied to all of them because i super value your imput! It’s really quite wonderful that there is a cool little blogger community willing to chat about stuff like this. I mean it’s pretty awesome that by putting my insecurities and random thoughts on the internet, awesome strangers and friends have empathy for them. I think its rough starting this journey of authenticity. It requires vulnerability which is something i struggle with showing. Though i think what will be hardest is to stick with this process. Its a conscious decision everyday to be happy and […]
I woke up yesterday and thought, hey why not tie a scarf over my head. seems legitimate right? now being a typical girl i had to ask peoples opinion. I snapchatted my best friend and boyfriend asking “is this too hipster to wear in public?” neither replied in time for me to head to work, so i took their silence as encouragement to just do it. I was glad i did, but i can’t decide if i look more like a pirate or a gypsy in this outfit. whaddya think? head scarf: street vendor in paris // shirt: gap (old) // necklace: charlotte ruse (?) // pants & shoes: f21 I’ve been reflecting on some things lately that have to do with beauty, so i suppose it feels appropriate to express them on a outfit post. I really enjoy fashion, I think hair and make up is also way fun […]
Sometimes, okay maybe most the time, i have a habit of hamming it up in front of this here camera. There are just times when you know that you simply can not do a serious model shot. Those are also the times where you think it’s okay to throw your curly hair up and decided that bunning it is a perfectly acceptable hairstyle for the day. i obviously have no idea what i’m doing in the fashion blog world with poses like this, but hey i’ll take what i can get. i apologize for having so many pictures up, i never know where to draw the line with fashion posts, some of these were just too funny not to show you. how much is too much Emma?! I might never know. anwayzzz: dress: gap // belt: thrifted // shoes: salt water sandals 10 Things That Make Me Smile Pretty: […]
its incredible how a few perfect moments in the middle of this beautiful world can confuse my heart to a point of utter chaos. today was terribly wonderful and i don’t know whats up or down but i do know that God exists because… hello this beautiful earth is no accident.
Today was primarily spent in the car “ooo” ing and “ahh”ing at the beauty of the earth we humans get to enjoy so much. The past few days have been been spent in contemplation and gratitude for a few wake up calls I so desperately needed. I’m starting to be reminded of Happiness’s relationship with Choices. It’s a glorious and terrifying feeling to let go of things that are easy, and actually prepare myself for consequences of better choices. This post was ambiguous. Everyone else in this house is asleep and I think that’s my que. night world.