you will never be perfect.

shirt: gap // jacket: anthropologie // pants: zara // shoes: nike Dear Emma, You will never be able to please everyone. You can never have zero enemies, or get rid of all your internal gremlins. You will never be pretty to every single person, and you will never be 100% sure of yourself and your choices. Sometimes you will say mean things, often you will make mistakes. Some people are going to hate that you swear, some people are going to expect you to give more than your capacity. You will always have your demons, and you will struggle with fighting them every. single. day. My dear, that is what makes you beautiful; these things are what make you human. Humanity is such a beautiful messy existence to be a part of. The human experience is basically living with your contradictions. At every fumbling step in this life you have […]

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the ordinary pursuit.

Well folks. This post has been a long time coming. It’s time to rebrand this here blog. Lets face the facts. Smile Me Pretty is cute, but also WAYYY to close the name of a really awesome wedding blog Style me Pretty. I’ve been wanting to rebrand my blog for some time now, and it feels like now is the best time. The best thing about a rebrand is it makes you think about what you want to say to the world, what you want to represent you. It takes a good amount of discussion and introspection. So here it is. I like to think the ordinary pursuit is the idea of being happy with the things which at times seem mundane, or not so flashy. I have a love-hate relationship with blogging, and that primarily stems from a yearning for authenticity. Realness. Being content to be ordinary. In the […]

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a poem written on a friday the 13th

You always seems to get to the horizon,to the point where you’re out ofmy sight and far off into the distance.Right when I’m unable to decipheryour figure from the trees in the distance,you turn around, and like a boomerangyou come back. And I’m so willing to jumpinto your arms and in your existencethat I forget to remind myselfhow many times I’ve mistook youfor a thing in the past. For some reason Iexpect it to be different.I say I know it’s not different ,but there are only small parts ofme that believe that. Parts that believe that contraryto all previous evidence of yourintermittent affection for me,you’ll love me as deeply as I know I need. But I know your capacity for me,It’s shallow. You’re not shallow yourself,rather the ability in which you can digestme into your waters is limited.I understand that. But I’m wasn’t looking towade into loving you. I was […]

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insert ambiguous title here

  shirt: uniqlo // pants: zara // shoes: goodwill a few days ago I was staring at the ceiling talking about some philosophical. theological, and existential questions and thoughts with Lauren. It was one of those spontaneous tangents we both needed to go off on. It was nice. Though there were a lot of frustrations we both expressed, I felt so lucky to have a friend like her. It’s not often you find people who are willing to be as unguarded and real. I’m grateful for Lauren’s ability to ooze authenticity and general likability. I’m thankful she’s one my best friends. Knowing that I have several friends like this in my life is a great source for comfort. That being said, I’ve been a little bit of a grumpy-gus lately.  I’ve been getting really frustrated with others inability to accept vulnerability. (it doesn’t help that my entire BFA project is […]

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dreamy nostalgia of portland

the trifecta of bliss is your best friend, one of your favorite cities, and your favorite camera/film combination. I’m so thankful for the time I had to spend in Portland before school started up again. And boy did school start up again with a vengeance. I’m getting really excited about the projects i have up my sleeve and the opportunities I’m seeking. It’s going to be a great year, and I’ll try and keep you in the loop. 🙂

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Farewell to the city of cities.

shot on my mamiya c330  on kodak portra 400 Well, i finally have a computer and turns out my facebook feed has just become a never-ending catalog of ice bucket challenges, wedding posts, or recent engagements. All good things i guess, but the redundancy ultimately led me here. The summer has drawn to a close, and with it my time in New York City. With school starting tomorrow I think it’s as good a time as ever to talk bout my experience there. Truth be told I went back and forth with my love when it comes to the city, but in the end I felt it was an incredible experience. I loved my internship. really, I absolutely loved every minute of it. I worked with the nicest people, who taught me so much. I immediately felt like I was part of the team. I felt valued. With the high […]

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on anticipating pain.

Shirt: UO // pants: anthropologie // shoes: Nina Z clogs Do you ever feel so happy that you might explode? Where you’re so content with your life that you have trouble even breathing, let alone believing that is your reality?  I think we’ve all felt those limited infinities. Where a moment strikes you as extraordinary and you just can’t help but feel joy. Those moments  are nothing short of magical. Every once in a while, in those moments, my mind begins to stress out. Where suddenly I try to absorb all of that delight frantically because I immediately assume that something terrible must be on the horizon. The term “this is too good to be true” becomes the anthem of my thoughts and begin to prepare myself for inevitable pain. This is true of nearly every relationship I’ve been in (and probabably why the honeymoon stage is both wonderful and […]

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whose this schloob wearing long sleeves in the summer?

dress: uniqlo // necklace: stolen from my mom (she says she got it a downeast outfitters) // shoes: uo CURRENTLY: Sitting at the coffee table pretending it’s a desk. Listening to some legitimately trippy music which consequently makes me feel like I’m on some sort of drug, while editing photos, and doing business-related stuff. It’s a moment of taking charge, acknowledging what I have control over and getting ish done. It feels nice.A tad bit stressful, but nice. **It’s been only a few days since my dear friend Tonya from the Moptop and Kassie came to visit me, and I miss them dearly already, hence why Tonya and her matching big hair gets a special appearance in today’s post. <3 <3 <3

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The arduous road to actually liking myself.

 shirt: madewell // pants: zara // bag: kate spade saturday // shoes: vans via madewell I’m sitting on a crowded train when I observe a man tapping his cane and singing with the kind of gusto fit for Broadway. To him the rest of us don’t exist. In his mind he’s just enjoying his favorite song, doing what we all wished we had the courage to do—sing loud and out of key and out of mind of our judgement. His oblivious bravado puts us in a state of amused discomfort. Some of us look on bemusedly, others record the display of don’t-give-a-sh** on our smartphones, and the rest of us sigh silently out of relief that this stranger has so graciously stolen the spotlight. I’m tempted to laugh out of nervousness; you know the laugh I’m talking about. The one we use when we want to say “Don’t worry everyone. […]

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the problem with pinterest…

is that it makes me restless. I’ve been pinning a whole lot of interiors lately, swooning of beautiful light and dreaming of how I will decorate my space once I have the freedom to do so. I really don’t know if i can wait. but alas, i must be patient. That doesn’t mean I can’t share with you some of my inspiration though right? cool. lets do this thang. via via via via via via via via via  If you’d like, you can follow me on the pinterest. or dont. we all know i’ll keep pinning either way.

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