poem post!

okay so I have been going to a poetry open mic night every other thursday with my friend Conner that i met this summer. (he was my freshmen mentor). It’s super fun. Everytime i go i get the urge to write more poetry!this is about what it looks like :(i’m the one in the white and pink cardigan and i think conner is reading in this one. if you care at all haha) so i thought i would put a poem i read this week up 🙂This one is called Nostalgia Nostalgia has a habit Of creeping into my mind, With you in tow. You cannot stay in the past, Though I’ve tried to camouflage you, I’ve tried to hide you, I’ve tried to avoid you. My efforts were wasted. For nostalgia has found you and carried you Into my thoughts. On the way Nostalgia dropped the heavy parts of […]

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yuck

i have successfully spent the ENTIRE day in my apartment. the majority of it in bed. last night it felt like i spent the majority of the night in the bathroom throwing up. I HATE throwing up. so this was no beuno. The good news is, i did do a smidgen of homework, and i’m feeling much better. but still. living with this many people in such a closed space is not doing wonders for my immune system at all…

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my new boyfriend: Harold…

i think i have spent more time with my new boyfriend the Harold B Lee Library than with any actual human contact this week. I am on a roll! this week has been so productive and most if it is to the benefit of my new boyfriend harold. He’s so smart, but he’s not overbearing. He makes you come to him, which adds to his charm, i mean you gotta dig deep if you want to know all the wonderful parts of him. I really just love him. He is so helpful to my ADD. i mean when i’m with him, i focus. like a cyber focus. ohhh he’s just so great! This week i developed a new strategy for getting things done, it’s plain and simple…. just don’t come home! i have stayed on campus all day for the past three days until i was done with all the […]

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cute with out the e (cut from the team)

i got cut from the track team today. it rained as i was walking to the coaches office knowing full well what was going to happen. i bombed my bio test, like totally fail. i found out i got an A on my American Heritage test today, which is actually great news cause that class is supposed to be one of the hardest. good thing i like history. the cute boy in my bio class has been talking to me a bit more. Lane is taking me to get ice cream. I have fantastic roommates. this is a random compilation of thoughts i have right now.today is a little bit of everything.tomorrow will be better because i’m getting a new pair of toms.

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medicine man.

i wrote this a while ago, but i’m wanting to write some more poetry, but i feel like i should share more of my poetry. I am the medicine manI clean the wounds of the injuredHearts that often call my name.I tell them it’s going to be okay.I am the medicine manI am the aid in which theyalways seek help from.I administer the exotic herbsThat dull the ache Every human feels.I have no medicine manI have no one to Pick me up when the openWound is grotesque and obvious.When I’m squirming and growing paleLying in this pool of bloodCrying,Screaming,Searching.Numb. I am numb. ThereIs nothing else I can say.I have run out of wisdom to Assure myself that it’ll be okay.I have no medicine man,  he has no cure.And this is it.

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memorization is key

As I lay my head down atNight i pray that my dreams will take me to a new life. I pray to sail into someone elses life. I pray that the aching pain that eats at my soul will be washed away.I escape to the wonders of a dream land.In that dream land Everything is okay.I am flying. I am soaring.I memorize this elation, Taking in the fictitious detailsFor I know when I wake,Uncertainty will take overAnd he’s back. He’s breathing.He’s living. I focus on his faceKnowing that when my eyesOpen, he’ll be gone again.In this dream landShe is praying. She is finally Seeing straight. She is feeling What matters, She is choosingWhat matters. I smile. I thank this dream for feeding my impatience.I take it in, knowing that when my eyes open, she’ll be on the offense.He’ll be six feet under,And I will be plantedfirmly to the ground 

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memorization is key

As I lay my head down atNight i pray that my dreams will take me to a new life. I pray to sail into someone elses life. I pray that the aching pain that eats at my soul will be washed away.I escape to the wonders of a dream land.In that dream land Everything is okay.I am flying. I am soaring.I memorize this elation, Taking in the fictitious detailsFor I know when I wake,Uncertainty will take overAnd he’s back. He’s breathing.He’s living. I focus on his faceKnowing that when my eyesOpen, he’ll be gone again.In this dream landShe is praying. She is finally Seeing straight. She is feeling What matters, She is choosingWhat matters. I smile. I thank this dream for feeding my impatience.I take it in, knowing that when my eyes open, she’ll be on the offense.He’ll be six feet under,And I will be plantedfirmly to the ground 

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a shower never felt so good.

Okay so today was my first day of track! it was so good! we had to do some perimeters and i was feeling so good at the end, i ran with another vaulter and i tried to help her keep going cause we had to do four and she was only confident in two but we did it! Afterwards it was such a great feeling. Even though we were practically last to finish, once i was done i just felt fantastic. i was REALLY thirsty but i didn’t have a side ache or anything at the end. The coach asked how i was feeling and i’m pretty sure he was talking about my knee but i was just like “really good! not as bad as i thought i’d be! :)” yeah i smiled so i thought i’d just put that in quotes too haha. so then we had to do […]

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with God nothing is impossible.

wow. words cannot describe how i feel right now. in the last 15 minutes, my life has totally gone from content, to ecstatic. wow. i literally cried with happiness. i never do that. Coach Shane called me and told me a wrote a compelling letter (basically i poured my heart out very professionally and sent it to him) he told me he felt i deserved a chance.i get a chance! i get a chance! I GET A CHANCE!i cannot even stop smiling. i literally can not. wow. I just began reading my scriputes again and working on the person i am without  pole vault and i feel like this is God’s way of telling me to keep it up. I am so happy! oh wow. okay, i have class  now and despite the fact it’s 2.5 hours i’m going to pay attention. oh btw, this is the letter i sent […]

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