a shower never felt so good.

Okay so today was my first day of track! it was so good! we had to do some perimeters and i was feeling so good at the end, i ran with another vaulter and i tried to help her keep going cause we had to do four and she was only confident in two but we did it! Afterwards it was such a great feeling. Even though we were practically last to finish, once i was done i just felt fantastic. i was REALLY thirsty but i didn’t have a side ache or anything at the end. The coach asked how i was feeling and i’m pretty sure he was talking about my knee but i was just like “really good! not as bad as i thought i’d be! :)” yeah i smiled so i thought i’d just put that in quotes too haha. so then we had to do […]

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with God nothing is impossible.

wow. words cannot describe how i feel right now. in the last 15 minutes, my life has totally gone from content, to ecstatic. wow. i literally cried with happiness. i never do that. Coach Shane called me and told me a wrote a compelling letter (basically i poured my heart out very professionally and sent it to him) he told me he felt i deserved a chance.i get a chance! i get a chance! I GET A CHANCE!i cannot even stop smiling. i literally can not. wow. I just began reading my scriputes again and working on the person i am without  pole vault and i feel like this is God’s way of telling me to keep it up. I am so happy! oh wow. okay, i have class  now and despite the fact it’s 2.5 hours i’m going to pay attention. oh btw, this is the letter i sent […]

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knick knack patty wack.

soooo let me let you in on whats going on in my life.the coach here at BYU did not even let me try out for the track team. it was hard to handle but i’m doing okay. it think. i was mostly upset because i wasn’t even allowed to try! but if i decided pole vault is that important to me, i’ll probably move to Oregon for a few months this summer and vault with Rick Baggett who is a really good, like world class, coach down there. it’s right by where i was originally planning on going to school. But the Lord made it VERY clear that i needed to be at BYU so i’ll have to figure out what my purpose here is pretty soon. So i’m trying to dive into school and it’s difficult cause i realized i am a facebook addict. yup. it’s true.so today i […]

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letting go is letting happiness in.

Let go of the graspThat holds you down.People will walk out of yourLife. They will appear as aVisitor taking an hiatus inYour own world.They will be brightAnd wonderous. They will give youA taste if the unimaginable.They will make you want to changeTo become more likeThem.But they leave.They all do.With attention spansof goldfish they move on to the next shiny rockWith excuses which doNothing but destroy your Bruised heart.And then you are left with theMemory. This is what love is;Memories. We fall in love with the feelings brought to usFrom past guestsdo not be fooled. They will not bring you happiness. Become a friendof your own.  Learn To loveYourself the way you desperately want to be loved.The happiness will flood in.

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hey there world! and by world i mean the perhaps two people reading this. Well i’m back at BYU and i’ve started a new semester. The fling i thought i’d have is a no go and i’m having a lot harder time making friends. I don’t get it, i’m a very sociable person i just seem to have lost the ability to make friends. It’s harder than it looks. Last semester i just had a super outgoing roommate and i just tagged along with her and now i have a super chill roommate. i don’t know how i got two extremes but oh well. i really like my new roommate dylan. this picture is from when we hiked the Y together. We are both pretty slow walkers and it took us a while but it was SOOO pretty! check it out! this is what it looked like by the time […]

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i belong to a true church

so if you haven’t figured out by now, i’m mormon! and i simply adore the church.recent even have made me have to take a look at the divinity of it’s founding and such and i found an incredible article online about the nature of the Book of Mormon and how complex it is, too complex for one man to have written in 60 days. i’ll put the link to the website underneath the article. i don’t know how valid the rest of the website is when discussing church doctrine but this article was fantastic. Joseph Smith and the Book of Mormon The Challenge of the Book of Mormon “The evidence for its validity in a world that is prone to demand evidence, lies not in archaeology or anthropology, though these may be helpful to some. It lies not in word research or historical analysis, though these may be confirmatory. The […]

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(i like)

doodling.poetry.dancing in the rainhandstandsGodhigh bunsstar gazingpole vaultan addictive bookadrenalinedressesgoofy accentsrandom bits of informationfeeling wittydogsMormonismbodies of waterkissingmy curling ironfacebookphotographymy roommatesshoesrollarcoastersswimmingslidingbeachestalkinglaughingsarcasmgymnasticssweatshirtsringslife.

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today i got the chance to talk to my best friend brennon.  He’s headed on a mission to Nicaragua. well he left for his mission two months ago but he went to the MTC (Missionary Training Center) in Provo utah on June 16th and now he is finally going off to the actual mission. He got to call me from the airport and it was hard to not talk to him longer. I really love that kid. He’s one of the few that really know me inside and out. I am so happy that he has made the decision to go on his mission and really sacrifice a lot (i mean two whole years!) He helped me feel better about my horrible week just by talking to me and letting me know i’m loved.Today i basically hid out a home. It’s a really good thing i love my family. Everyone […]

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the only thing you can rely on is change.

the past week has been one of the most troubling weeks of my life. Three major things happened to me and i’m still trying to come to terms with reality. I’ve been writing some poetry to try and help me deal and it’s been pretty helpful (even if my poems sound somewhat depressing) I’ll post one of them at the end of this post. I just can’t figure how do deal with a lot of this. It feels like tragedy after tragedy keeps showing up this week, okay maybe you might think i’m being a little melodramatic, but i could really care less. this is been a hard week. First off i had finals. I studied really hard to do well in my classes and somehow pulled it off. But my level of stress was high. After taking my Book of Mormon final i was told by a close friend […]

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“we’re a happy family”

Alright, so I’ve had such a great time here at BYU, I have met some amazing people (I know, how cliche) Let me tell you a little bit about my family here. So it consists of two apartments the girls of 12 Bowen Hall (12B!!!!) and the boys of 21 Broadbent Hall (B21).Girls!Me-you’ll find out more about me laterMaddie-My roommate, she is wild and fun. She’s a free spirit and sooo outgoing. She’s basically the reason I know so many people around here.Jenna-ohh Jenna, I love her so much! she’s my track buddy, she’s trying out for the team too and I could be more excited. She’s such a goober. words cannot describe how much i love this beautiful girl. except that I LOVE her!Launa-Oh Launa. she’s soo funny! she is just so okay with being her silly self. and we all just love watching her talk about something that […]

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